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Attention Seeker

by Felix Hagan & The Family

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1.
I see her glisten in the lights. Just listening to people Shout things they don’t mean She spouts worn-out carpe diems in her torn up tights and DM’s She’s the queen of her wasted little scene And if she hates me my heart breaks With such an earth-shaking sound So turn and face me for my sake You could save me if you come around And I don’t like to bare my soul to strangers But show me yours and I’ll show you mine And we'll dance together. One more time. Come on. Well he’s so single, searching for a simple kind of love That withers in daylight And in his mirror, he’s a king. He’s a winner He’s the patron saint of each great Friday night And if he hates me my heart breaks With such an earth-shaking sound So turn and face me for my sake You could save me if you come around And I don’t like to bare my soul to strangers But show me yours and I’ll show you mine And we'll dance together. One more time. Come on. It’s not a cry for help. It’s just a cry for connection And I’d trade my life and health to make people pay attention I’d sacrifice myself for the sake of entertainment And die smiling when you’ve seen it. So sing out like you mean it. When I hear people stand and cheer It’s the dawn that shimmers in the dark And if they hate me my heart breaks With such an earth-shaking sound So turn and face me for my sake You could save me if you come around And I don’t like to show my soul to strangers But show me yours and I’ll show you mine And we'll dance together. One more time. Come on.
2.
Something’s alive in the shadows Something’s got eyes in the dark Flies through the night like an arrow Is it a nightmare? Is it a bullet aimed at your heart? Your nights fill with demons and visions Fire-breathing monsters and claws You’re locked up in your own superstition And you’re shaking. Too frightened to open the door Well playtime is over Time to grow up, boy child Life won’t wait much longer Til it blows up, boy child So ya get strapped and march off to conquer Whip crack now dance with the monsters Start taking over ‘Cos the world’s yours, boy child. So kiss like you’re leaving forever Dance like this night is your last It’s true that you can’t change the weather But you can go out, shout down tornados and laugh Well playtime is over Time to grow up, boy child Life won’t wait much longer Til it blows up, boy child So ya get strapped and march off to conquer Whip crack now dance with the monsters Start taking over ‘Cos the world’s yours, boy child. So cry, if you want to And throw open every door Just sing, cos you’ve got to And you won’t be afraid any more. Well playtime is over Time to grow up, boy child Life won’t wait much longer Til it blows up, boy child So ya get strapped and march off to conquer Whip crack now dance with the monsters Start taking over ‘Cos the world’s yours, boy child.
3.
Gene Kelly 03:24
There’s a boy who sits alone among a thousand little dreams Wants the break the hearts of hundreds, growing drunk on fevered screams He’s running from a shadow that has stalked him all his life It’s the darkness that is lurking when you feel like you’re dropping out of sight Well he’s torn himself to pieces and each night he feels the itch To grab the needle, thread and scalpel. He’ll gather, slice and stich And he’ll build a brand new person where the current person sits Until he’s nothing but a patchwork of other people’s greatest hits And every lost evening while time ticks ever on He sings for his supper goes home to write songs Waits for some signal, waits for some break To make him feel better he’ll say I wanna dance like Gene Kelly Dress like Elton John Give those kids who get me a star to wish upon Tell the world I’m ready To write their favourite song So folks who never met me will miss me when I’m gone But these dreams don’t keep the lights on, they don’t pay for bread and cheese There’s no free ticket for the rockstar with the most convincing pleas And though ambition is a virtue, and desire can breed a king There’s no reaction without action. There’s no life if you don’t sing So kiss goodbye to comfort, say hello to fun Grab your battered guitar. Face the dark and run Halt the shadows creeping, turn up every dial And watch the people smile when you say I wanna dance like Gene Kelly Dress like Elton John Give those kids who get me a star to wish upon Tell the world I’m ready To write their favourite song So folks who never met me will miss me when I’m gone
4.
I’m so sainted, untainted, scrubbed up and squeaky clean My virtue will serve you delight that’s so pristine That’s what I tell myself well you’ve torn those lies apart Just touch my wrist and for that instant I’m yours with all my heart Woah. Step back and slap myself sane Now lust erupts to leave shame Bad little man. Catch him and make him say Woah there Kimmy I’m not that kind of boy I’m not some womanizing, self-defiling Slave to my own joy Woah there, Kimmy. But I’m programmed to destroy And make mistakes, so hit the brakes And find another to enjoy Well I’ve got these demons They’re screaming for something good to eat Trussed up and dreaming of their freedom Their chains are getting weak But I’ve seen darkness In my heart, miss And it scares the shit out of me So I’ll cement my defences And get up off my knees So, lust fades to black and I’m done Quick turn my back and I run Bad little man, catch him and make him say Woah there Kimmy I’m not that kind of boy I’m not some womanizing, self-defiling Slave to my own joy Woah there, Kimmy. But I’m programmed to destroy And make mistakes, so hit the brakes And find another to enjoy Well I’m so sensible But now your sex has struck me like a siren and I’m sceptical Because behind my eyes I feel a yearning so damn sexual It’s like a whisper, fixing up to make me feel delectable But it ain’t so simple baby Cos my body’s not yours to possess But you wish to press the flesh nonetheless My brain says no, my gut says yes, well it’s no no no But there’s no defending of the indefensible When those defences are not a test for you Bad little man, catch him and make him say Woah there Kimmy I’m not that kind of boy I’m not some womanizing, self-defiling Slave to my own joy Woah there, Kimmy. But I’m programmed to destroy And make mistakes, so hit the brakes And find another to enjoy Woah there Kimmy I’m not that kind of boy Get out of my mind and forget me forever Woah there, Kimmy I’m programmed to destroy my body of mine, but that’s fine So take your black heart and go
5.
Well you could build me a house made of silver and gold So fine it’d make a grown man weep to behold it And dust all the walls in jewels of every hue And I will dance like a child through the castle and grounds Drinking wine from a cup worth a billion pounds And I’ll feel so fucking empty through and through ‘Cos the one little thing that I’m lusting after Only thing that’ll make my dreams come true Well if a smile’s what you wanna see There’s only one thing you could give to me I said hey, I want you. Well you could show me the world, lay it out at my feet Change the names of the towns and the names of the streets To Felix Hagan City and Family Avenue And I will walk through the towns with a tear in my eye See the platinum statues a mile high And I’ll cry for mercy, cos Oh no it just won’t do ‘Cos the one little thing that I’m lusting after Only thing that’ll make my dreams come true Well if a smile’s what you wanna see There’s only one thing you could give to me I said hey, I want you. You could start a religion based on things that I say Put my name in the mouths of the folks as they pray Put a wide-eyed, truthed-up zealot man in every pew And I would stand in the pulpit and wave my arms Spit my sin, damnation and napalm psalms And as they kill each other in my name I’ll know that it’s not true ‘Cos the one little thing that I’m lusting after Only thing that’ll make my dreams come true Well if a smile’s what you wanna see There’s only one thing you could give to me I said hey, I want you
6.
Darling you don’t know what you do to me I’m like a lowdown leach boy sticking to ya And you’re a queen such a sight to see I’m just a time-bomb, won’t ticking til ya Take my hand, darling. I’m on your leash, snarling To throw my head back, howl at the devil Ready to start something. And there’s a storm coming So take me back, my muse, to your temple So let’s get out now. Back to the house now You and me for something bad Eyes wide. Chest tight So get back, get down on the double Heart pounds. So loud One look, one touch, I’m in trouble We’re fine, supine Gloves on, let’s go for another round Just come on down Well there’s religion in the things we do As if the whole world sweats every second of it And at the centre there’s just me and you Smashing morality to dance in the wreckage of it We are the heartbreakers. Fresh out of our cages Ready to crash, break, kill for the thrill of it And if they’re wishing for it, we’ll charge admission for it And when it breaks my soul, yeah I’ll still love it So take a bow, now. We'll bring the house down Time to drive a good man mad Eyes wide. Chest tight So get back, get down on the double Heart pounds. So loud One look, one touch, I’m in trouble We’re fine, supine Gloves on, let’s go for another round Just come on down
7.
What’s this hot flash of attraction? Like daggers thrust in the night With all the vain satisfaction Of feeling sexy like A whisper, tempting and dangerous A promise. A lie. Electric fingers seeking skin To tear, then kiss and cry So steal a glance at the siren in the night Come, take the bait. What you waiting for, sucker? I hear you calling like the ocean But babe, I ain’t coming. Babe, I ain’t coming. You’ve got me courting your devotion But babe, I ain’t coming. Babe, I ain’t coming. You’re not my future, oh. You’re just my past I’ll turn my back on you. Start running fast You’re dealing out such sweet emotion But babe, I ain’t coming. Babe, I ain’t coming. How can such a sweet temptation Bleed with such despair? Divine exhilaration, Sex hangs in the air But here there ain’t no salvation No love. No truth Just lust and desolation Long nights and wasted youth So kiss me once, boy. And sing out my goodbye Dance til you’re feverish. Dance til you die. I hear you calling like the ocean But babe, I ain’t coming. Babe, I ain’t coming. You’ve got me courting your devotion But babe, I ain’t coming. Babe, I ain’t coming. You’re not my future, oh. You’re just my past I’ll turn my back on you. Start running fast You’re dealing out such sweet emotion But babe, I ain’t coming. Babe, I ain’t coming.
8.
Fall Away 04:04
Hello Old Friend I haven’t been home in a while I’m all screwed up But having you here makes me smile I saw an old photo from when we were kings We were dressed up like Teddy boys, dancing on strings Playing at grown-ups, learning to sing And I reached out to pick up the past But it rushed through my fingers so fast But in my thoughts you come back again Bathed in light forever, my friend I walk right up to hold you but then fall away, away, away ‘Cos what could I say to the face in the dark Would I speak of the nightmare that will soon come to pass Or leave him forever to dance in the past A memory to keep in a box And pray that it never gets lost But in my thoughts you come back again Bathed in light forever, my friend I walk right up to hold you but then fall away, away, away
9.
I find myself darling, all messed up The phone’s gone silent, and they’ve hung up My love is fading so far away And they said that all I can do is pray But I would burn down this city To keep you from the cold And I would chase back the shadows That are slowly taking hold I would run to the mountain And scream into the storm And push it back down forever So hold on The miles inch by on idle tides Each second cuts like a thousand knives I’m living lifetimes in every hour And growing famished on my willpower And I would burn down this city To keep you from the cold And I would chase back the shadows That are slowly taking hold I would run to the mountain And scream into the storm And push it back down forever So hold on So pray for me and I'll grow stronger by the mile I'll run a thousand years and never tire Just turn your face to the sky Call out my name And I will burn across the night like I'm on fire Now through infirmary doors I’ve burst Each face is haggard, each glance is cursed And I see those monsters won’t set you free Well wait til they get a load of me Cos I would burn down this city To keep you from the cold And I would chase back the shadows That are slowly taking hold I would run to the mountain And scream into the storm And push it back down forever So hold on
10.
Sweat, ache, Hands shake Heart begins to palpitate Legs twich. Twist and kick Something’s wrong Eyes wide, dilate Every shadow seems unsafe Can’t sleep, can’t eat Help me, I’m gone Well I drank, sipped, sucked it up Threw every last shred of hope in the cup Then knocked it back, world fades to black Not quenched until I drown Now where’s my soul, said I This twitching kid with the bloodshot eyes Got oh so high, failed to fly Now falling to the ground What would make you get so battered That your bones betray you, start to shatter And you can’t relate to all the happy little night-time boys and girls Teeth clench, hands too Won’t do what I want them to Can’t think, need drink Wrong kind of thirst But it’s done, sense won Couldn’t handle all this fun Save breath, crave death Can’t be much worse And I'm sick, sigh, can’t abide This twitching track from wet to dry I’m too old to cry, too young to die Too rabid for the pack So I’ll spit, try to hold it in Search for a sign of life within And I’ll fake a grin, until my skin Is starting to crack What would make you get so battered That your bones betray you, start to shatter And you can’t relate to all the happy little night-time boys and girls Well you’ve got to break through, got to battle through The nights that hate you, ‘til you’re better And the shakes can’t shake you Like the happy little night-time boys and girls So just stay cool and break through this sick delirium state I got wasted, now I’m tasting the cruel justice of fate Can’t sleep. Bones creak. Must seek the night-time boys and girls
11.
Be A Freak 03:18
I used to die inside Pent up and paralysed By fear of strangers’ perception I thought that being afraid Should never be displayed ‘Cos then you’re risking rejection Eyes sliding over me That evil laser beam Pray that I’d pass their inspection But life’s too short to be Slowed down by trying to be Everyone’s kind of perfection So be a freak Be something astounding They’d just love to shut you up So why speak when you can shout it Why crawl when you can strut Sing loud Especially if you can’t sing Dance like you don’t care at all And be proud ‘Cos baby you’re the best thing ever ever ever What does it feel like What does it feel like What is it like to be shameless? To dance from a to b Footloose and fancy free No fear or guilt to restrain us But if we try to be Bigger than ever We might find that love is contagious So let’s break free of these chains around our liberties Time to start living outrageously So be a freak Be something astounding They’d just love to shut you up So why speak when you can shout it Why crawl when you can strut Sing loud Especially if you can’t sing Dance like you don’t care at all And be proud ‘Cos baby you’re the best thing ever ever ever Well if you find that your soul is starting to decay Submerged in sorrow and drenched in every kind of grey Or if your fabulous future is looking kind of bleak Then sneak right up to the edge of the light and take a peak You’ll find the devils and freaks, watch as they jump and spin Throw out a lasso to grab your heart and pull you in And when you kick off the chains it is the best thing Ever Ever Ever So be a freak Be something astounding They’d just love to shut you up So why speak when you can shout it Why crawl when you can strut Sing loud Especially if you can’t sing Dance like you don’t care at all And be proud ‘Cos baby you’re the best thing ever ever ever
12.
Well everyone’s the hero in their own story Everyone’s a sucker for a taste of glory But stories are for children, and glory’s not a taste I can acquire And people say that wishes are the path to freedom See the stars a-shining, honey. You could be one But pipe dreams flush away and in the cold grey light of day they expire And I’ve built my castle on broken dreams And as time goes by, I must admit it seems like I was sold a lie. Makes me want to cry so loud ‘Cos it’s tough to be a dreamer when they don’t come true Nothing seems to happen and you can’t break through Feel like your blossoming is overdue And you realize no one’s gonna give the world to you Well ain’t no use in crying, darling. So they say Find a thing you love to do and make it pay Nothing you accomplish matters anyway So all that really counts is how you live today Well I’m not one to get uptight for no good reason While some might see decay I see a change of season And everyone’s got problems, no more or less pathetic than mine ‘Cos I’m trying to project a sunny disposition But it’s hard to paint a smile on wasted young ambition And every day’s another little grain of sand lost to the mists of time But I can’t make it, then what’s the point If my whole damn life is set to disappoint Well I guess there’s nothing left to do but smile, so smile ‘Cos it’s tough to be a dreamer when they don’t come true Nothing seems to happen and you can’t break through Feel like your blossoming is overdue And you realize no one’s gonna give the world to you Well ain’t no use in crying, darling. So they say Find a thing you love to do and make it pay Nothing you accomplish matters anyway So all that really counts is how you live today Well if this is that ever will be, that’s okay But there’s no damn noise left to drown out The sound of the petals that sigh as they’re falling away ‘Cos it’s tough to be a dreamer when they don’t come true Nothing seems to happen and you can’t break through Feel like your blossoming is overdue And you realize no one’s gonna give the world to you Well ain’t no use in crying, darling. So they say Find a thing you love to do and make it pay Nothing you accomplish matters anyway So all that really counts is how you live today

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released October 12, 2017

Produced, mixed and mastered by Joe Davison

Recorded at WR Audio, Manchester
Overdubs at Auburn Jam Music, London

All songs written by Felix Hagan
Burn Down This City written by Felix Hagan & Dom Brown

The Band:
Felix Hagan - Lead Vocals, Rhythm Guitar
Ellie Cowan - Backing Vocals
Tash Hodgson - Backing Vocals
Joe Davison - Keys
Tom Webber - Lead Guitar
Chris Hunsley - Bass
Stuart Mann - Drums

Additional vocals by Nikki Davison, Biff Roxby and Andrew AB
Trombone on Fall Away by Biff Roxby

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Felix Hagan & The Family London, UK

Felix Hagan & The Family are a seven-piece beast made of makeup, hairspray and rock and roll. They fuse punk, rock, pop and musical theatre into a seamless, high-energy blend of genres, all held together by masterful musicianship and an outrageous desire to entertain. ... more

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